I've decided that after over a year, its time to say goodbye to DA...Sorry!!! I Just havent been inspired enough and I'm going to be lacking a computer very soon. I hope you all have an amazing life!!! Catch ya all later!

OH MY GOODNESS!!! I just realized that I am uuber close to having 1000 pageviews!!! THIS IS THRILLING!

ALright...i'm basically a dumb ass...I'm falling for my neighbor, and now i'm messing it all up. Alright...so i'm thinking John likes me, but I have no clue..anywho, before I left for New York over spring break, I was talking to Joe on the internet and we were just talking about basically nothing. Then he brought up his need to get laid....he has a girlfriend....but its not her he was asking to come over to do the no no with him....he was asking me. Now I know that its REALLY not something I should do because its wrong....but for some reason I REALLY want to do it. I know he doesnt care about me, but thats not clicking in my head. He knows he can make me do what he wants. Damn it. The only thing thats stopping me right now is John. Allthough i've been assured that no one will find out, i'm still worried that John will find out and totally hate me forever. I dont want him (or Joe for that mattter) to think i'm some kind of whore....If I did it and John found out and stopped talking to me or something....that would seriously kill me. I have no clue what to do. People are saying not to do it....but I still want to. If I find out that John doesnt like me, I probably will...but right now, hes the only one thats stopping me from doing it.....fuck....I dont know what to do....

wow. I havent written a journal in about forever. So i'll tell you what i've been up to. nothing. I did go to sadie hawkins with nick not too long ago. That was snazzy. Expect i'm really dissapointed with the pictures. OH! My 16th b-day also came and went. Twas awesome. I went to Portland with my mom and we went to a hockey game and stayed in a nice hotel and whatnot. I got a car too! Its a van. And its awesome. I'm already planning a camping trip. Its gunna be fantastical. Today me and John are going to sing for our Bio class today. A song about DNA. Yay. But not. Its kinda funny. I made John have to do it and hes pissed. Well....sorta...I finally know that he likes me which is pretty exciting since he makes me laugh SOOOOOOO unbelievably hard. But yeah. We're gunna sing the DNA song and we have to rehearse during lunch with Ms. Streng. I heart her. haha. Well thats about all that happened lately. I adore you all!!!

Our toilet exploded hard core...I was just sitting here miding my own business when I hear this wild "wooshing" sound...I looked in the bathroom and the toilet was flooding onto the floor (its contents as well)...so I called my dad since hes working nights and he told me to vacuum out the toilet...it was icky..like...hardcore nasty...so now dad had to remove the toilet completely to try and fix it...hopefully its done soon....